Spazz ground

my life,

Why cant for once in-my life, I end up with a smile on my face in the morning instead of crying all night. I hate the fact that I cant hold anyone for too long nobody ever cares about me the way I care about them and it just hurts so bad its like the bad is all waiting on my chest wanting it to cave in and let me just bleed to death so I don’t have to feel anymore. They say you don’t choose the ones you fall in love with but, what you don’t choose is who falls in love with you if anyone even does. because your flaws stick out like a sore thumb and everyone else is so much better than I could ever be. I just cry and cry for hours wishing I could erase everything that has ever happened and finally be that girl that leaves my heart aching. I want people to see me but, nobody ever does i’m just an invisible little girl making absolutely no impact on this world. Just crying over what Ill will never have.

Somebody to love